I don’t know why. I have so many I run to. But I feel like I have no more close girlfriends. At least in town.
Actually, it’s probably not true. I’m just feeling slightly lonely. Everyone has returned back to their respective school lives, and I’m working my ass off (not as much as I want, but still working my ass off) and I miss my high school groups.
I have no one who really I feel so comfortable with, with whom my guard is completely down. At least not in town. I am different people to different people, and I and I miss just having my guard down.
There are four people in the world I can really talk to like that, and none of them are around. At least for the moment.
January 9, 2009 at 1:26 AM
Aw! I know the feeling… You could write here with your guard down!
January 9, 2009 at 6:19 PM
Do I EVER know the feeling. And then I go and cut off a major tie to out-of-town friends… huh. That was a good, healthy decision though.
When my best friend moves to China in March, I really will have no close girlfriends to talk to. That makes me sound like a dork. Really, it is partially my fault; I am very picky about who I spend my time with, mainly because my time is so valuable right now. Since I don’t have a lot of it. I also think when you get older, you realize that your time is precious and you become pickier. This isn’t a bad thing.
For me, a lot of friends and I grew apart when they got married and started having babies and I did not. This was very sad for me, but it is very difficult to maintain friendships when lives are going in different directions. Is this the case with you and any of your friends?
Anyway, I am always around. As in, in town. I may not be “around” and I may be busy, but you can at least text me!
January 9, 2009 at 8:24 PM
I know what you mean. That sort of loneliness is awful. With that being said, why not reach out to one of the four people anyway? There’s always the telephone, or email…
January 10, 2009 at 10:46 PM
I hate it when break is over– a bunch of my friends have gone back to school too. At least we have the internet so we can keep in touch pretty easily
January 11, 2009 at 1:27 AM
Ugh, dude, Yeah. Completely. Yeah.