maybe i lied. Thursday, Oct 30 2008 

i want to stay. so i think i’ll try it out.

this is my risk, my passion, my experiment, so maybe I should just lie in my own bed. things get too close for comfort, well, that’s my own fault.

i can’t think about who’s reading. it’s embarrasing, but if co-workers or friends or whomever reads, that’s great. that’s what all writers want.

but it changes my message if i think about it. i just want to be honest. my best writing comes that way. and i hate censorship. arrgh. so frustrating.

but it’s a line i’m going to have to walk very, very carefully.

and this is me. starting over.

i’m done Thursday, Oct 23 2008 

it just needs to happen. it’s too hard switching and hiding. it used to mean something. it doesn’t any longer.

for now, i’m done.